“friendship, pride, unity”

I have been thinking a lot lately about how time changes people. I remember being so tight with my old friends. In fact, they were the only thing I had. Day After Day (my old band) ruled my life for about a year or so. Those were the best friends I’ve probably ever had. I still love those guys a freagin’ ton, I would give anything to relive some of the times we had. It’s just funny how situations change and you stop being friends with people. It’s no one’s fault it’s just what happens. As you grow up people go separate ways, and that stinks!

So I sold out straight edge when I got saved when I was 16. Nothing about my life has changed at all… aside from the fact that I live my life drug-free to honor God  instead of doing it to be a part a social group. Not that I don’t love my straight edge friends any less because I still do. I just find it hard to be a Christ follower and a part of something as hateful as straight edge at the same time. Straight edge for me was all about loving each other and absolutely hating anyone who wasn’t like us. That just isn’t something that I could be a part of anymore and I lost a bunch of friends over it However, I am so freagin’ grateful for straight edge because since I didn’t grow up a Christian, it was the only thing that kept me from getting into trouble in high school when all my other friends and my brother’s friends were.

I still have the same values I had before. I still believe in self-esteem and taking caring of your body. I just believe that that lifestyle is something I should share with my friends who don’t have the same values instead of hating them.

just a thought!

chris

Beans?

Bobby Ditzler and I were hanging at Lenox mall today and someone tried to sell us drugs.  What is this world coming to?  The best parts are…1. it was a chick2. she told us she had the “beans” which was apparently the good “stuff” (pg version)gnight,chris  

the hood!

Kurtis and I had a day off school today to go help out in the worst area in the south east U.S.  It’s called the west end.  It’s amazing how there’s seriously a place where white people aren’t aloud.  It’s astounding because I don’t know of a single place where an African American would not be safe because of their color.  Maybe certainly outnumbered, but not unsafe.  I’m certain their are some places I just don’t know of them and they aren’t as common.  We were just trying to help people in need today and it was obvious that people just did not want us there.  If I had of walked in the grocery store on simpon road, I can promise you I never would have walked out.  I was more scared today than I have ever been.  We got to bust up some concrete pipe and it was amazing.  Check it!

 

everything I do (other than school) may it be all for You

I just got a huge lecture from one of my teachers.  I would say that I feel called out but I really don’t.  Apparently she feels that do not have a Christ-Like attitude in her classroom.  I was told that me not trying as hard as I can in music theory does not honor God.  Maybe I am wrong, but I feel like I have been totally misread.  I try so hard at the things I care about.  Worshiping God is my number 1 priority with my music, my life, and the band.  The fact that I am not excited about being in music theory at 10 a.m. every Monday, Wednesday, Friday has nothing to do with how much I love God.  I make good grades, keep my scholarship and give God 110% in every aspect of my life other than school.  Maybe this should be a wake up call for me.  I fully admit that it is not like me to settle for anything other than my best, but I just don’t feel like it makes a single bit of difference here.  As long as I keep hope scholarship and graduate on time that’s ALL I care about.  I just have a hard time believing that God is concerned with how much or how little I care about music theory class.  Tell me if I am wrong, please…

-chris

everything’s clearer in black & white

Why I would stay in school:

My parents would be proud of me

Someday I could get a real job as a worship pastor if I needed to

side note: the absolute last thing I want or feel called to do. Plain and simple, thats not for me.

I wouldn’t have to worry about paying for my own insurance for the next 2+ years (I’m just being honest haha)

Why I would quit school:

I am not happy here, at all

I could be playing music and networking more

I could be more focussed on what I am doing and why I am doing it

I could be practicing more and getting better

I could travel more and enjoy being young

I could start my life now

3 days until I have to make the biggest decision of my life thus far haha its aight no pressure. I would say I’m trusting God but I have no idea what He wants me to do.

-chris

not for long

Soon I will have a place to call my own (well I guess I’ll call it ours)

-chris

east bumble feez

This is exactly why I need out of east bumble feez. I’m not even sure what this is.

dude bra… thats so old!

Since when did being a “dude bra” become not only acceptable, but desirable?  I refuse to be “that guy”.  Being a gentleman just isn’t affective anymore.  What’s wrong with this picture?

I made a potato-cannon today.  That’s all that really matters.

-chris

good times

Isn’t awesome how hearing a song can take you back to a certain place in time? Well tonight that happened to me. I went to see yellow card and it was the most fun I’ve had in a long time. It was one of those things were as soon as they played the first chord it was like I immediately sent to 6th grade going to shows with my buddies Tym and Alyx. Those were some of the best times in my life and hearing those songs just reminded me of what awesome friends we were.

So me and Bobby are getting a town house. I’m so stinkin’ excited about starting my life. It’s gona be awesome. We are hopefully going to see this place I found in the next week or so.

Life is good to me, its good to be with rents for a few days. I hadn’t seen them in way too long. There’s nothing like a glass of tea and chillen’ with my mom. Gnight!

-chris

home is where the highway meets the hard times

Can I just say that writing country music is one of the most therapeutic things a bum like me could do. I have been very inspired by all the dena stuff the weez has given to me in the past few days. It’s pretty much the coolest thing ever. Ive really been getting into Ryan Adams too. I dig his writing style and his lyrics.

All I can say is that from here on out I am no longer trying as hard as I was before, maybe that’ll make things different.

-chris